221

[melworks]

Fuck.

Last week, I was at 216 lbs.

Today, I'm at 221 lbs.

It's been a stressful week and stress makes me binge and that's what happened. I was okay until this past Sunday, and then I didn't just go off the rails, diet-wise, I drove the train off the rails.

Again: Fuck.

FUCK.

FFUUUCCCCKKKKK.

So, yeah. It didn't help last night that I drank half a bottle of rum.

I have got to get myself under control.

I have got to stop binging when I get emotional.

God, I feel like I'm in my 20s again.

So, that's the plan for the rest of the week.

Get our shit under control.

Get back on track.

Stop. Fucking. Drinking.

Stop buying shit food.

Get. Better.

Gratitude. Today I am grateful for my ability to recognize my own faults and, hopefully, take action to correct them.

Comments

[draxil]

It's a tricky time of year IMO. You'll get back on track soon I'm sure!

[melworks]

Thanks. It's easy to blame the holiday season, but the fact is that I got angry and when I got angry I just went out and ate a lot of crap that I didn't need to eat. I need to manage my anger a bit better. :/