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It's a lovely day out here in the sunny South. It's actually living up to its name. I'm about to hit the road and go across town to the used bookstore, and then come back home and fold laundry and have something for supper.

Speaking of supper, I've got a 500 calorie surplus to play around with today.

I want to go out and get a cherry Coke, but I'm going to try and be good and spend it on something better. Like fruit. Or, I don't know. Maybe I'll break down and get some actual cherries. We shall have to see.

UPDATE:
I was doing so well today. Then, I was sitting on the couch, watching a movie and I started to snack. To just compulsively eat.

I feel awful about it.

I ate:
1 can of baked beans
1 package of turkey sausage crumbles
1 packet of cheese/peanut butter crackers
1 pear
1 apple
4 tablespoons of peanut butter
1/2 bag of corn chips

I had about 2100 calories for today, because of the unspent cals from yesterday, but I've gone over it. I've gone over it by quite a bit.

Fuck.

I think it's the tea. Ever since I started drinking tea again my impulse to snack is way stronger. I wonder if it's the caffein? I don't know. All I know is that I have to get these impulses under control or I'm going to undo all the progress I've made since June.

And I AM NOT letting that happen!

Today I am grateful for Shadowpup. He is 3 years old today and I love him to pieces and he loves me. I'm grateful for our snuggle-time on the couch and even for his incessant demands to play catch at all hours of the day. Because it makes me feel loved and needed. And that's a nice feeling.