Not in a good place right now

[melworks]

I am not in a good place, mentally, right now.
I think I could be suffering from a bout of depression.
Nothing really matters to me right now, but underneath that is this slowly simmering anger.
Sometimes, I feel like I want to take a baseball bat to the face of the world.
Some people have noted my change of attitude, but that's about it.
I'm a pretty taciturn/introverted person most of the time, and most people who know me, know this, and sort of give me my space.
When I'm at work, I'm 'On', the way a performer is 'on' when they're on-stage.
But when the day ends, that bright persona fades and I'm just me again.
But I'm getting to a point where I don't care if I'm 'on' at work anymore or not.
That could be problematic.
Fuck. I hate fucking feeling like this.
Hopefully, it'll get better soon.
If not? Well, I'll have to go and talk to somebody about it.
Fuck.